It had been only a week since submitting this article on the need to slow down during the holidays, and yet there I was- stressed and in tears over casseroles and cookies for Santa. I still needed to buy stocking stuffers and oh yeah, we had to be at four different family gatherings, not including our own at home.
Breakdowns…I hate them when they’re happening, and I feel misunderstood by those around me and closest to me. I have all the typical reactions (why?! if only…!). But breakdowns have actually become a close ally. I’m serious. Because a breakdown is so often the first step of a breakthrough.
My breakdown, my feeling tense and overwhelmed, that was my cue-I want new traditions. This shift we are making toward higher consciousness, with new energies and creative forces ready to be birthed, it wants to emerge into every aspect of our personal and planetary life. How I celebrate, how I spend time with friends and family, how I hold space for ritual and honor life’s passage, this too is the stuff of life ready to transform. The question is- do I have the courage to trust the breaking down of the old and follow my heart toward the new?
I’m not exactly sure how the new will look. But following old ways or what everyone else is doing is not an option. What I do know is that for me Christmas is not only about the birth of Jesus, it’s also about the birth of divine love in all of us. It’s not about running up to Target for the hundredth time. The meaning of gift giving is expanding, as is our definition of family. My gift could be my story or my peaceful presence. I’m serious. Just because we’ve always done something doesn’t mean we have to do it forever. In fact, 2012 invites us into something new. I can just hear my friend, quoting Rumi- “The door is round and open, don’t go back to sleep.”